Compromise

Well, I did it! I managed to get up and leave the house after a shower and getting dresssed for shopping..... I'm glad as I really needed to send my father-in-law a birthday card...why I am such a procrastinator in these sort of things I do not know.. but I find it ever so hard to get around to stuff like this...
But hey.. just cos I went to groceries, the bank and the newsagent does NOT mean I am going to continue and have a active day!!! Hang on there!!! I still feel tired and I'm going to spend the rest of the day pottering... (not too hard !!!) and just do a couple of things....

Finish folding the washing

Iron a few pieces for work for the rest of the week

Ring my ma later on to see how she went with her endoscopy/colonoscopy

Sweep the floors

Make something for dinner... what'll we have, what'll we have???

I have to go into work just for the last hour to help Sam and lock up...

The rest of day I'm going to

fit in a nap

fit in some reading ( reading Three cups of Tea - the story of Greg Mortenson)

hopefully catch up in my journal a little

Sick But Monday Cheers me UP!!!

I am struggling along with a head cold but I love Mondays and so the day's dawn made me get up out of bed with as much vigour and vim one could expect when you have a nasty head cold! There was a further challenge to feeling awesome Monday cheer when a short time later, the power went off but I remained undeterred on my happy little Monday path!!! I just love having a brand new week to start afresh and set myself some more goals which incidentally I never seem to achieve, but nevertheless enjoy thinking about!!!
This week's goals are:

to eat a bit more healthier than I did last week

to drink lots more water and flush this cold out of my system

to remember to use my puffer which I have somehow forgotten about the last couple of months... probably contributed to me getting the cold!!!

use the voucher my boss gave me for my birthday ( a nice clothing store one)

try not to crab at B. even once this week.. poor guy been getting my evil eye a lot lately..... oh, he deserved it.. ehehehhehehhe.... but I should cut him more slack really... he tries.... ehehehehhe!

Well, that's a few... probably enough for a non-achieving person like me!!! Some of them aren't even " goals" merely things to do .... and nice ones to boot! Like who would have trouble going to a nice clothing store with $100 to spend??????? :)

Sad Today

I feel a bit sad today. There are certain subjects and things I just cannot speak to about with B. or he becomes very obstinate and "anti" and refuses to hear me out. The things that make me very anxious and worry me he has absolutely no patience to listen to...a lot of the time I guess I am saying that HE is causing me some sort of bother.. but is that so hard to hear???? I can't help that I get upset when for example he makes life difficult for me by some careless or selfish action he does! I try so very hard NOT be selfish... is it because I am a woman that I am always trying to accomodate everyone and make things good for everyone while he just seems to please himself??? Anyway, 'nuff said... it's nothing new, I just felt that my birthday was really spoilt by some selfish actions on his part...he was rude to my family and also made very little effort to help me when I was really struggling to get everything I needed to do done for the day....it's not that I think MY birthday is so special, it's just that of all the days, one would think you would try and make someone's birthday a happy one, WHOEVER'S it is.....

Anyway these are the things making me HAPPY today!

I have seen the injured magpie around Lakes Pde still surviving and looking OK!

Pink and grey galahs in the trees, and the fact that I see the one with the damaged wing regularly! He's OK too!

My beautiful dog Raymond and his exuberant nature!

Going to Rob and Leshaye's for tea tomorrow!

Only have to go to work for a short time today! (I like my job but I NEED a lot of time to sort stuff out)

Beautiful sunny day!

I am healthy and fit!

My new Kindle!

My beautiful new Jamie Oliver cookbooks!

My friends and family who love me and show me their love in so many ways!

Bingle!!

No, unfortunately not Bingo! but bingle.... for the first time in many many years, I came into contact with someone else's car with my car.. oops! feel so bad about it... I was in a bit of a stressed out state and wanted to go out to get a Freddo icecream cake on Saturday when Mum, Roy and Charlotte were here for my birthday... B. was outside laughing and carrying on.. hadn't helped me hardly at all when I needed it the most and when asked by Olivia could he go and get the cake he apparently said to her that he'd go when I said... but that's what I sent Olivia out for!!! he must have thought she was just nagging him, anyway, when she came back in and said " Nanna!! Grandad's not going!!" I got into a bit of a huff and thought " Oh , I'll just go myself!!! It'll be quicker!!!" Well when I got outside, my car was blocked in and so I tried to back B.s car out on an angle, trying to avoid his stupid canoe which was also in the way.... anyway, looking looking out the back, I didn't watch the front end enough and scraped Mum and Roy's car... a BRAND NEW Nissan Micra with the bullbar!!!! Oh gosh!! Well, I've been online and lodged an on-line claim.... hope it can get fixed for them soonish....I'm not blaming B. but it sure would have made my life easier if he'd just gone to get the cake when I said!!!!!!

Trying Days

There has been no internet again for a few days....in the meantime as well, some things have just come out of the blue like a lightning bolt... unpleasant and difficult things... I am very very sad and have to take a break from blogging...

Happy and at Peace

I feel at peace and that means happiness.... I can't control anything except my own thoughts and reactions to things( sometimes can't even do THAT !!!!! ehehehehhehehe!).

I choose the way I think
I choose the way I interpret things
I make up my mind whether to let things ruin my day or not
I can take the best out of everything and blow the rest away "with a breath of kindness"

Sometimes it IS hard to exercise CHOICE... one often feels COMPELLED to follow habitual patterns ( as in " I can't help it!!!! " mode of thinking) even when you know they're not helpful, your mind just wants to go that way.....

It's such a feeling of "victory" and so empowering when you know you could so easily slip into familiar "territory" but then you MAKE yourself do or think another more positive way!!!

Life is good.............